So I’ve started 6th Form.

I’m knackered.

And by judging on the amount of work I’ve got so far (it’s only been 2 days of lessons), doesn’t look like I’m going to be a happy bunny at all this year.

Not at all.

Interestingly enough though, here’s a discussion I was told about:

Teacher: “You’re going to have to retake this year, next year.”

Student: “Why?”

Teacher: “Because you do sports [for the school] and have a social life. You’re not going to pass this year.”

Charming.

So does that mean I’ll cut the grade? Well, I’m well versed in being the perfect child, so that’s not an issue. But my laziness is going to have to take a beating if the work piles up like this.

Right. Back to homework…

Just taking a quick look through this thing, I’ve realised I’ve never talked much about being Chinese or my opinions on things.

Then again, during term time I don’t end up doing much that’s wholly interesting, and this summer’s been kind of lame for me. Well, except Paris.

But I’ve noticed something. I talk, I play devil’s advocate (far too many times), but I never talk about me, not in much detail. Which is probably terribly bad for readership, but then again, there’s not a huge readership to start.

Thing is, I’m pretty much like that in real life. I keep myself to myself. My friends probably don’t even know me wholly that well either. I’m not anti-social, I’m a teenager, but I just don’t say a lot about myself. I’m just quite quiet at times. Cue awkward silences.

Maybe I should get out more… Or maybe it’s because I don’t have siblings…

Could just be that I’m a complete wreck. Ever since the death of my grandfather, I’ve noticed I’ve been a bit of a wreck. I’m also a good liar, and I’m still appearing normal to the rest of the world (enough to get 6A*s, 2As, and 2Bs in GCSE, and I’m meant to get another two results soon-ish). I was a complete wreck that day, and I’m still reeling from that now, approaching four years from then.

Thing is, I’m still the person that people look to for answers, emotionally, physically, factually. Sarcastic or not, I have an answer, usually.

And I’m now having a breakdown (Thank **** that I’m not drinking). About bloody time. Time to sit in a darkened room for a few hours and sort myself out. Or therapy.

Darkened room’s cheaper. Moving on…

Ok.

So here I am. Far too much free time on my hands, and far too much thinking and observing. And now I’m turning into Angry Asian Man 24/7.

This blog was never designed to be shown to anyone I know. If they did find it, I’m not sure they could guess it was me anyway. Or maybe they could. (If so, hello, and I’ll explain in private, find me later). Therefore this leaves me almost very free to do what I like concerning this blog: I’m not writing or talking to anyone specific. It’s just for me to let my thoughts flow.
I’ve guessed this blog’s readership is probably an extremely small amount of people, and due to my inconsistency about what I post, and how often I post, I’d also hazard a guess that most of the readers are one post wonders.

I’m also away from home quite a bit, wondering in and out of London doing various things (I returned from a few days in Paris not so long ago, and should head down to see my Uncle in a few days).